Does this ever happen to you? Where you can’t fall asleep because today was that amazing. Where God has blessed you that much? Try this on for size. Where it wasn’t the lack of shittiness that saved your peace of mind, but the undeniable gifts from God. Where you know His love is real. No matter if you haven’t talked to Him for ages. When it hits you that He really never leaves you alone? Just one of those days that happen by accident. Where you could have attributed it to the sunny weather. Where you could have attributed it to the message you heard during that worship thought at your lovely Adventist school. But no. That same shit happened again. The shit that blows my day at least 4 times per week. The stuff that turns my stomach inside out. The stuff that fills my mind with garbage. That stuff that distracts me from my ultimate purpose. The stuff that makes me doubt that I am really loved at all. The emotions that turn my heart into a playing field, where I still have no skillz at catching, batting, throwing, dribbling, tackling, or volleying. The stuff that turns my perspective to meatloaf. The devil threw it ALL at me again today. But guess what? He lost…just like he will at the finale. It’s sort of like a little preview. I did nothing to deserve it. I complain when I don’t get what I deserve or when I work too hard for the pennies they pay me. But when the pendulum swings the other way and I get the princess tiara for free you won’t see me dragging. Such a pity to be so human. Yet such an honor. We are made in God’s image you know?
I hope you have that kind of day where shit happens, but somehow, someway God kept your head above water. Today I laughed, I loved, I achieved, I believed, I pushed myself to the limit. But there is no joy in that without Christ. There’s no joy. No jared. No addi. No alyssa. No aron. No matt gamble. No mom. No dad. No best friend. No stranger at the coffee shop. No lab partner. No teacher. No run in the park.
Dear Lord, help me to live each day to Your glory. Help me to jump even higher after a fall. Help me to laugh even harder after I cry. Help me to love even deeper after I’ve been broken. Help me to run even farther after I’ve given up.
Psalms 46:10
Be still and know that I am God.
Be still and know that I am.
Be still and know.
Be still.
Be.
fb note: by Joy Crews on Monday, November 8, 2010 at 11:38pm
