Silence.

I am almost completely numb to the core.

Which you might think would hurt less.

True numbness would be complete and purposeful ignorance of the truth.

Unfortunately this is not an option for me. I was never made for that.

I feel selfish and impudent for ever having tried to escape.

I am forever tied, hand and foot, in fact, by blood.

What a travesty is it for me to love the place that breaks my spirit.

Sweat and tears have gotten me only more sweat and tears this summer.

Heartbreak seems to be the only available destination.

There's no way to avoid what my heart is screaming out.

Please, take me away! Save me!

But there's only silence. That's my only enduring comfort in this world. Silence.

"I can't tell if it's killing me or making me stronger." ~Unknown

My eyes hurt. Goodnight.